I want to earn �5000 and take a rest in my life since this money spent on my study has made me mentally ill?

While coming to the uk to study MA Management from nepal, I spent nearly �9000. Now i finished my study as well, however, i became depressed and am still suffering from mental illness. I have not been able to pay off the loan to my relatives. If i only earn �5000, i will go to my village where there is dust floor, no plumbing inside the house, irregular electricity supply, scarcity of water and no good hospital, but still i think i will be healthy there than here in the UK